thus begins my 4 day "weekend"

Here we go again.

I'm trying to be better but I'm tired of pretending I'm okay in the meantime. If I'm upset or feel messed up or stressed out, I'm not gonna be passive aggressive like it's high school all over again and consequently ruin my relationships with people. I'm gonna express myself in whatever way I so choose. This is my right as a human being. Don't you tell me that I should stop crying. I will weep whenever and wherever I want. You think I care if professors and fellow classmates are walking around while I'm crying? I'd rather they see I'm human and have real emotions (contrary to popular belief) than let them think I'm just another ghost in the machine. 

I want to be okay again so I can stop being such a burden for him. I love him so much and it's not fair for me to be poisoning him with my problems.