what's up, what's happenin

The past couple of weeks have been rough, but things are starting to look up. Lately, I've been doing little things to get back on my feet slowly but surely. I initiated this process as soon as  I started feeling unsatisfied with myself. Though I know I've accomplished a lot already, I just feel like I could be doing more. I believe there's always, always, ALWAYS room for improvement. I'm doing just enough to get by, but why stop there? There are an infinite number of things I could be doing to make me happier, more at ease, more successful, etc. Oh, and not to mention going after opportunities where I could make more money! Ah. Yes. It always ends up being about money.

I've created a list of steps I am now taking to improve my situation. So far I've written an official statement to my boss expressing my interest in the business of event planning, and my request for a more active role during special events. As of tomorrow,  I will have applied for a second job (at Plenty on W Broadway and Macdonald), one that I could work during the day when I'm not working at The Rio, which if on a weekday, I usually work nights.

Often when I get into these phases, I also tend to do drastic things with my physical appearance. For example, during high school, I cut my own hair a lot. One day I had shoulder length hair, the next, it was boy short. I cut my hair a lot when I had anxieties too. It didn't always turn out so well... At one point my mother started hiding the scissors. Hah. 

A couple of weeks ago I bleached my hair. Honestly, the novelty has worn off and I wouldn't mind dying it all some dark colour to make it uniform, but I will at least try to keep it like this till December. That's what I'm saying at least. I'm not sure if it's that old familiar feeling of wanting to see change happen , or if it's all the coffee I drank that's making me so wired and hyper tonight--maybe it's both!--, but something made me want to cut my hair. Soooooo...I cut the right side of it short.

Voila!

These photos kind of remind me of how I was during high school, trying to be "emo." Hahahah.

I was looking for a photo I just saved as 'lovemovement', which is of the "Love is the Movement" Logo, and I found something else! A picture from 2007 where I am wearing the shirt! Sadly I lost that shirt at camp that year :(

Also thought I'd throw this in here to compare my hair from now and then.

On a more serious note, this hoodie means a lot to me. I bought it when I volunteered for TWLOHA at Warped in 2007. I'm actually wearing it in anticipation for the 2nd Annual TWLOHA Day on Thurs. Nov 13. Unfortunately I can't say I've been clean for over a month...Still struggling, but at least I'm surviving. 

On Nov 13th I will write "Love" on my other arm.

XXXO,

Dorothy, actually